Hushed

July 12, 2020

I’ve been stuck. Wordless, I have been unable to escape the present. Find the future. Remember the past. My mind wanders from room to room, carried by legs a little confused as to why they are there.

The days blend together, beyond boredom, through a fog of ennui, “of course, they blend together, how could they blend apart?” my own attempt at humor falls on deaf ears. The nights are broken by too-real dreams, a restless soul searching for security, heavy eyelids gliding smoothly downward … shh, is the whisper. she’s almost back to sleep.

6 Comments

  1. Carmen says:

    Jane

    I don’t know your story but your poem resonates so much to me and my actual situation.

    I feel covid has changed the way we see the world and our surroundings.

    I hope that you find yourself soon. I know your are phenomenal because my sister Claudia adores you and she only loves people who are worthy of her love.

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts

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    1. Jane Miller says:

      Well, hello, Carmen-Claudia’s-sister! Claudia is such an inspiration to me. Her work ethic is so strong – in all parts of her life, whether it’s in the boxing gym, or the classroom, or climbing a mountain – her heart is so big, her laughter so genuine and happy. She says I am her inspiration. I say she’s mine, and then we dance. Thank you, Carmen, for your kind words about my poem. This latest “test” has really affected me. It is only now, as I’m beginning to feel better that I realize how bad I was truly feeling! I hope we can talk one day about our stories. Best, Jane

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  2. Nora Hernandez says:

    Hi Jane

    I don’t know you, but Claudia told us how strong you are. I just send you the best off vives and a big hug , I know you will have a good news soon.
    Nora

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  3. Cindy Valladares says:

    What a beautiful poem. I have felt stuck at different stages of my life. Sending hugs and strength as you find your way out.

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  4. nicolwalsh says:

    I love your heart and your words that resonate so much with me. I am blessed to have you in my life. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us!

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    1. Jane Miller says:

      Thank you for your kind words. I think we’re both blessed to have each other! We sisters in Parkinson’s have a wicked strong bond!

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